Making the Internet My Accountability Partner

I cannot believe it has already been six months since I started this blog. So much has changed and I have grown so much. As I mentioned in my welcome post my goal was to hold myself accountable to my goals. I’ve succeeded in some ways and fallen short in others, such is life. Part of my reasoning behind this blog, as you may have been able to tell in some posts, is the answer to this question right here.

Daily writing prompt

Are you seeking security or adventure?

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I am someone who craves stability, comfort, and security. And yet I am aware that my comfort zone is holding me back. As long as I keep trying the same things over and over again I’m going to get the same results. Unfortunately, there was/is a lot to my life that is unstable. I had to learn to be ok with the discomfort of growth. That mindset is what helped me stay the course. Yes I have been uncomfortable at times in various steps of both this blog and my goals, but I know I want to grow into a happier and healthier version of me.

Health and happiness comes in many forms. I primarily wanted to focus on my emotional, financial, and physical wellbeing. I started this year with credit card debt and no savings, so any unforeseen event would have devasted me. This caused significant stress, so knocking it off my plate would contribute to two larger goals. I paid off all my debt in March and I have been setting up my savings. I currently have $800 in untouchable emergency funds and $1000 in short term savings. I breathe so much easier now that I have just that little bit of wiggle room.

Keeping this blog and hold myself accountable to reflecting on myself and my goals has helped my mental/emotional health immensely. I have more faith in myself to be the kind of person I want to be, the one I envision future me being. I have been consistent with using my coping skills and reframing strategies. I have advocated for myself against those inner doubts.

I have been spending more time outside, more time moving joyfully. However, in every other metric of my physical health I have yet to see significant progress. I have fits and starts of cooking healthy meals for myself and periods where I can barely manage to heat a frozen pizza. My endurance for cardio hasn’t changed, my strength hasn’t changed, and my body hasn’t changed.

I am a work in progress, but I never let the distance yet to be covered discourage me from celebrating the achievements I have already made. I am a happier and healthier person than I was 6 months ago. I have forced myself to adventure into the things that scare me and I feel more stable and secure now.